If you spend your life in fear and worry, you’re not living and if you’re not living, then there is no point…
We all live our lives in constant fear, fear of anything and everything. Something that you are scared of may seem really silly to the next person and ‘vice versa’. Our fears limit us to doing what it is we want, it limits us to try new things and experience events, all because we are scared of the consequences, we are scared of the ‘what if’s”.
At times some people are confident and fearless, for example myself. I sometimes say that I am not even scared of death itself, but I know that is a lie. Because I am scared of many things, and I’m not just talking spiders, I’m talking life altering fears. Fears that stop me from doing what I really want to do. There are so many things that I believe would make me happy, but I never go out and try it, or never put anything at risk, because I am scared of the consequences, I fear my decisions, because it could alter my future, my path, we have programmed ourselves so much as to what life should be, that we are scared to make moves, we are too busy trying to achieve the ‘perfect life’ that we don’t stop and consider our happiness.
Death is a scary thing, and it is even worse to lose someone who is close to your heart, to lose someone that has touched your soul, who has made you smile, who you have memories with. It is almost impossible to imagine a life without them. Why should you? Someone you love so much surely cannot pass away. But we do encounter loss. There is nothing you can do about it, it will stick with you for the rest of your life, you will always feel that sharp pain in your heart, or the big lump in your throat every time that person crosses your mind. You will always wonder ‘what would I be doing right now if that person was still here?’, and it’s not fair. But you cannot let the death of someone be the death of you. Is that what they would want? For you to suffer, cry and stop living your life? Well I don’t know, I cannot answer that, it is something each individual has to consider and ask themselves, each person lives through a different experience, no two people are the same in feelings, just as no two people are the same in loss.
Each person has a different meaning to someone and this is what truly makes them individual and differs them from everyone else.
So what are we afraid of?
What are we waiting for?
When will you start living your life?
The curse of insomnia creeps up when the day becomes night, and the sky becomes black. Sometimes it’s a constant thing for an individual, sometimes it happens unexpectedly, and your mind seems to wander, becoming wrapped up in unrealistic thoughts and fears start to pull at your heart strings.
Why does this issue occur? Throughout the day we are occupied, at work, studying, talking to friends, spending time with family and getting tasks done. However when the night falls, we are alone, in our rooms, the day slows down, we have time to think, to let our minds generate ideas, thought processes, scenarios and our mental stability can collapse in a matter of seconds, temporarily.
Our fears are what define us, it’s what makes us who we are, it is what pushes us to become the best of ourselves, to have no limitations. What are my biggest fears in life? In my mind I am happy, I make myself believe that I do not have any fears, and that my life is complete, I make myself believe that I do not need anyone to make me happy, or material objects. In my mind, I have what I need, and what I need is enough. But this is far from the truth. Because when you have time to stop and think about it, your subconsciousness kicks in, and all of the pain, emptiness and fear reveals itself in a quick moment.
Like most people, my fears are simple, yet the only objects stopping me from achieving what I need to, they are limitations that I have set myself without any intention to, without any control over the matter. I fear that one day I will not be happy with a decision I have made, that I will lead myself down the wrong path, and regret. I fear that I will never meet my soul mate, and I will one day marry and create a life with the wrong person. I fear that I will not succeed in my career, and that perhaps I will regret my career path. So in summary, I am fearful of life, of what my life will become.
What will my life become?
I will not let my fears impact the way I live my life. I will live in the moment, making everyday count, every second, holding precious memories in my mind and letting go of things that are made and meant to stay in the past.
After all… If you spend your life fearing and worrying, you’re not living and if you’re not living, there is no point…